Malcom Rodriguez

i broke the valve on the propane tank feeding the forklift yesterday. i was trying to throw a matress and springless box spring into the dumpster but the box spring was just a few hairs to big and a rigid wooden frame
thought we could run it over with the forklift but the k**b shutting the gas off was so tight and the k**b was also bent askew so I tried to ply it with the rubber-covered handles of a pair of plyers, which fit closely into the groves of the k**b but it ended up snapping off.

the whole operation was a sandcastle someone else made I was trying to repair as the tide rose- the big kahuna has finally come

i called the pm about the valve- he said from the picture I sent that his vice grip could still turn the valve. guess we find out this morning.

I was thinking at the time he may have been the one to have over-tightened it short- now i recognixe it could have been me and the fact that the k**b was bent- i had thought he might have overtightened it in response to me telling him when i returned to the shop late monday the CO alarms were going off and I found the forklift gas valve was open- I aired the whole place out and everything stopped beeping in 20 minutes.

last time the CO detectors had gone off I called the national saftey guy and that had felt pointless and awkward- all he did was affirm my plan to call the fire department and tell me it was good that I called him in a tone that suggested he was trying not to sound patronizing or discouraging.

we are out of paper. we might need something printed. never did get the reciepts from walgreens for the flubbbed non-transaction of 500 in then out then in then out again- summing to zero but walgreens never gave me proper reciepts for it because it just rejected the over-the-limit gift card purchases and the manager was only able to see that some strange transaction took place but not able to print anything on it so I called 1800walgreens and never heard back. obviously it doesnt really matter but the credit card tracker app wants reciepts- it was embarassing to ask for an override before, now it is nothing compared to this whole thing

I cried yesterday after confering with bex that i was gonna put a milk crate of my office stuff in the shed. the milk crate was the cherry on top of the sundae by metaphorical volume of all the crap i moved out of the office into choo choo lagoon, and also a poignant reminder that my general approach to sentimentality of stupid bulls**t detritus/ making memorabilia of garbage is not widely celebrated

memory itself is sentimental and if it isnt shared it's just masterbatory to dwell too much- if it is shared then it's special, it can be another thread of the coat of personality- mostly I have junk and a sense that I have again been repudiated.

I am gonna go to work today for the last time at the branch. I don't have anything else lined up yet but there are options. I'm a skin with a box of snake carcasses

amanda sat me down monday morning to tell me they are closing the branch septmber 30th- 9 days.
I should have known by her kind demeanor- she's always bullied and belittled me- sending an email "there seems to be a lot of confusion" because I forgot that for this out of market lead that nebraska wanted me to cover if I want to make a service lead for it I need to fudge the zip code or the computer wont give me access- I say "forgot" but really that was the only time I had that exact situation

she told alex, my old boss they s**tcanned in june, that i needed a haircut and my office was messy- although both of those things were true.

i didnt like the motherly way she was lookimg at me amd thanking me for continuing to work and remaining professional- i told her i didnt really see another option and if I'da thought that it could help things, I'd habe no problem not being professional- they are loosely offering severance for sticking around- it took an email, a teams message, and a phone call with HR to get them to send me an email- i told amanda the whole situation felt nebulous- I learned that word from billy.

actually another wordy sort of thing i just learned from billy- the phrase "the exception proves the rule" means if something is ever specified to be different it is implying the oppisite for those not specified- i made a tik tok arguing that since there were signs that said "no sampling" on the snack dispensers, since there isnt a sign on the fountain soda, sampling must be allowed there, so i cupped my hand and slurped some diet coke, like how I used to drink water from the faucet as a child before I realized I could just as well stick my head right under the faucet, mouth-to-stream- billy commented that this was an example of exception proving the rule
My thought always was with that phrase that people were saying that every rule must have an exception to it and would use that as a justification for why their special case must be allowed, because my being in violation of the rule, it brings validity to the rule because every rule must have an exception. Billy's explanation made a lot more sense and makes my original thought seem convoluted and totally senseless.
This was my problem growing up- I didnt understand things and didnt know how to arrest the conversation until the books and granaries of every ichty minutae were satisfied- oscar wilde did say the biggest flaw with communication is that it presents as having successfully occured

Ive applied to probably 50 jobs- swipe right on indeed- done maybe 5 prelimimary interviews so far, more to come on monday and wednesday as of yet.

thumper has a spine and wriggles around.

chaz of the appropriately-sized functional asthetic commission and I chatted- I knew I had to call him, as we have a theory that our career satisfaction is a zero sum game between the two of us- he told me of the moldy basement he got crammed into and the hollowing out of his entire industry- that helped me stop feeling so humiliated and ashamed and got me more into the opportunity mindset. Monday and Tuesday were rough after she told me- on wednesday I was a snake shedding skin

I do a bit as one job ends and the next job hasnt started yet. (Dont have that yet) i say i'm kind of in between jobs at the moment to ellicit the weird half-pity half-encouragement that awkward people give before sharing when the new job starts and they give the "oh" brimming in relief that betrays their performance

i emptied a bunch of crap from bex's car this morning- i borrowed it when amanda called me monday morning to let me know she was there to "audit" the branch- hell maybe that was true through amd through and it just took her 30 minutes to decide to shut it all down- my car is not beffitting amanda to look at it- i have about 40 magnets, 10 inches by 2 inch rectangles on the passenger side- the grey almost matches the paint- they are there to cover up the scratches that came from a dishonorable man scratching it up with his atv (i witnessed it and he wouldnt admit to it)
anyway the car needed emptied because I was using the office for storage- magic cards, paintinga, piano sheet music, a shoebox full.of mold-prevention stickers (i like stickers, always have- actually a very normal fixation that appears weird or silly because most people repress their natural urge)

now I gotta go back and get more crap- have been at panera drinking coffee- still using bex's car because my car is throwing misfire codes- AI overview says it might be fuel pump failing during fast acceleration causing the gas to run lean, so i guess I dont really want the failure to progress til it's undriveable

6 branches altogether getting shut down im one swell p**p- two of the branches the territory they cover is getting closed for future sales- OK and UT

the eating parmesean cheese packets bit is doing well- i'm encouraged to keep doing it, my brother im law was flummoxed by it and tried to discourage it- stoking my fire- people act like bending social niceties just a little is some eGREGious thing

feel like my sinuses have been clogged for over a year, have been sluggish this past week, took pseudonaphrin - three capfulls last night and went to bed before bex and woke up after her

dreamed about the bank deposits i have to get sorted- i put down the wrong reference number and am 3 cents short because it was cash amd three pennies got lost in the shuffle- i should get that sorted this morning. am going to use the IT open office hour to ask about the new hire and the covemaker inaccessible lead problem- thats at 10 am during the new hire test out- hopefully he can oass and get an ipad at the end- and when are the shirts coming- hopfeully soon. Gotta see if wells fargo got their money yet. Probably gotta call citi again and see if they will honor the dude on the phone who said theyd waive the balance transfer fee.

well it finally went through nowni just gotta call wells fargo amd ask them to waive the interest. We will see how that goes. Feel like blong. Had to tell him yesterday he didnt get paid early for one of his jobs because the downpayment he collected wasnt rounded up the penny.

Dreamt that archibald was showing off his clean house or i was helping him clean it and his back was feeling better because he was cleaning but he couldnt put up a chicken fence exactly where he wanted it because of city regulations- he was living at the green house, the other mansiom across the street from the chocolate mansion between dragonmouth and the peirce mansion on the way to lukes/SITP

a weekend in will do us good. I need to mow again of course and there are a few more trees i need to use my car to pull again

my iPhone just moved a text conversation that I initiated into spam, without warning me, because it didn’t recognize the other number. so I had to go looking for the conversation.